I Confronted My Ab*ser 30 Years Later… Everything Changed

(CW: CSA, Dr*g A, Self H*rm, Suic*de Ideation) For a boy growing up in the 1970s, rural northern New Jersey was a year-round playground, filled with secret fishing holes, enchanted woods, and private trails to explore with friends. But this chiIdhood idyll was snatched from Clark Fredericks by a man he regarded as a local hero: Dennis Pegg, the town’s Boy Scout leader, a law enforcement officer with the Sussex County Sheriff’s Department, and, as Fredericks would discover, a serial pred*tor. Through his teenage years and young adulthood, Fredericks kept silent about the horrific ab*se he experienced, turning to dr*gs, alcoh*l, gambl*ng, and s*x addict*on to numb the memories. For decades, he remained tormented by shame, unable to share the secrets that were eating away at his psyche—until he v*olently confronted his ab*ser. Following his timing in pr*son, Clark Fredericks and his story have inspired major reform of the statutes that once severely limited the rights of C.A. victims to sue their ab*sers.

Find Clark:

Book “Scarred”: https://www.simonandschuster.com/books/Scarred/Clark-Fredericks/9781668018651
Podcast “Free Like-Me”: https://freelike-me.buzzsprout.com/
Website: https://www.freelike-me.com/
IG: https://www.instagram.com/clarkfredericks/?hl=en
YT: https://www.youtube.com/@clarkfredericks3309

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Chapter Marks

00:00:00 Intro
00:04:22 Dennis Pegg's integration in Clark's hometown
00:10:36 The first instance of ab*se/gr**ming
00:14:23 Pegg's gr**ming tactics
00:18:51:23 CW: CSA, animal ab*se
00:20:00 Burying the CSA
00:27:16 The signs of CSA starting to manifest
00:32:29 The effects of CSA on a male survivor
00:38:27 Being in debt to the mob
00:41:30 PTSD and other struggles
00:42:08 CW: dr*g ab*se
00:46:52 Acknowledging the CSA for the first time & Confronting his ab*ser
00:51:14 CW: passion-provocation mansla*ghter
00:58:41 Going to pr*son
01:00:29 CW: Self h*rm, suic*de ideation
01:06:07 Life changing choices in pr*son
01:11:15 Sobriety
01:15:32 Reconnecting with the love of his life
01:22:00 Final thoughts and Linda listen

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