Why I Left Christianity After 20 Years As a Megachurch Pastor

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Dr. Todd Phillips spent decades preaching Christianity, leading megachurch congregations, and studying theology at the highest levels—until the very questions he hoped would strengthen his faith led him to stop believing. In this deeply personal conversation, Todd shares his journey from devoted Pastor to agnostic, the devastating emotional toll of losing everything he believed about God and heaven, and how he's rebuilding a life of purpose beyond religion.

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Chapter Marks

00:00:00 INTRO
00:01:33 Introduction to Dr. Todd Phillips
00:02:59 Growing Up Without a Strong Religious Identity
00:06:26 The Personal Crisis That Led Him to Christianity
00:09:07 A Friend Introduces Him to Jesus
00:11:37 The Spiritual Experience That Changed His Life
00:13:49 Sponsor Break
00:14:55 Re-examining His Powerful Conversion Experience
00:19:37 Was It God or the Human Brain?
00:21:22 Joining the Southern Baptist Church
00:23:38 Becoming a Devoted Christian and Entering Ministry
00:26:18 Studying Theology and Biblical Languages
00:27:38 How His First Ministry Began
00:35:40 Looking Back at the Sermons He Preached
00:41:29 From Growing Ministry to Megachurch Leadership
00:47:42 Life Inside Conservative Evangelical Christianity
00:50:04 Theological Education and Critical Thinking
00:53:27 Discovering Questions He Wasn't Allowed to Ask
00:58:45 His Missionary Work in Liberia
01:02:17 Beginning Eight Years of Deconstruction
01:05:05 Looking Back at Evangelism and Missionary Work
01:08:34 Why He No Longer Believes in God
01:13:14 Questioning Hell and Religious Truth Claims
01:18:54 The Devastating Emotional Cost of Losing Faith
01:23:42 Why He Supports People Who Question Religion
01:26:15 Building Community After Deconstruction
01:29:40 Where to Find Todd and His Community
01:30:20 Advice for People Questioning Their Beliefs
01:34:11 Closing Thoughts

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